Starting over

Well, I will not throw all my believes over board as quickly, as is healthy. But I shall work more steadily at it.
I do have help.

I found, that books find me. Sometimes they come into my life, before I am ready, but they are there, when I need them. And among them were the books, that I have mentioned in my last post.

Just as books find me, so does advise find me or general help or "new" ideas or any idea to help me on. I have been partly open to to new ideas, but as a person of habit, I did not follow any new idea as I might have. Added to that, I do not follow new ideas, just because everybody does. I might follow them later on, but not - in general - when they are at the height of their success or in many heads and minds.

I came to trust myself there. When I find, that upon meeting an idea, I like it instantly or it speaks positively to me in some way, than its time for me has come and I pursue it. If it comes to me and I dismiss it withouth even a flicker of interest, then its time for me is not there.

I have had contact to awareness and indian philosophies and ayurveda before, sometimes I was interested, oftentimes I wasn't. But lately I found, that more and more information comes to me into one direction or some from direction, so maybe it is time to starting over to something new.
I only have to get this into according with my school and learning time. But it will come, I do not worry.
What really grips me and is good, will stay with me. So I will just wait to receive and act upon.