I've been neglecting you

But I was in a sort of post-traumatic shock. As you might remember or not, I had to re-write one of my exams. So I dilligently prepared myself. Only to find, that they didn't choose the topics I could have answered very well indeed. Instead they decided on something, that I didn't have been prepared for and that was - in my oppinion not really a topic that should have been chosen.
Well, I thought to myself: never say die and did my very best. Which was not so very much and therefore I am pretty sure, that I didn't pass this again. Now, normally that would not be so very bad. And it is not existential, but having failed this exam means, that my apprenticeship was not successfully finalized. It also means, that I have laboured for three years and now stand there: with accumulated knowledge of three years, but not with any degree. And I could I called myself a Bachelorette of laws.

Ah well, on the upside: if I am right, I get 70 € back for the graduation-ceremonies, that I won't have to attend and I don't have to think about what to wear. Also, as I said, it is not exitential. Since I am already a civil servant for life - so to say (german term, hard to translate, really) - I will just go back to a job in the level I had before the apprenticeship. I won't get the raise, I won't get the interesting stuff to do, but I won't be thrown on the street either and join the ranks of people out of work. So I am actually very lucky. Then again, I usually am. Even when I have a mishap...

And, we have to remember, I did only write on Tuesday. I get the result in August. Also, there were several of the 14 people writing, who had the same problems, that I had. Maybe that counts. So: I might have the usual luck and just scrape by, with 4.0, meaning that I passed. Which to me is by far enough. I didn't mean to be brilliant, just give my best and that at least I did.

So, to end this on a happy note.... (as ever, I don't own the clip)