I never really understood that song. Well, the meaning of it. But I always loved the melody of it. So, to get into the swing:
It is a lovely song and it is a hopeful song as well. Now I am not a wretch, but right now I do feel lost, with three exams ahead of my and no concentration speaking of. Ah well, I will be found though. I suppose.
And I was successful so far. Yesterday I managed to explain State Law in a way, that friends who didn't know a thing about it, understood it. And I could answer questions. So I am little more hopeful here.
Today I read about Help for care in Social Law. And I finally got it. In a little while I will read on about how to examine, wether some has a right to social care and if he/she has to give some of the income or the property, he/she has. That is the hardest part for me, as I shall have to calculate and calculating is my weak spot.
But: I will get there. So I had better stop here and say thank you:
Every thanks counts. I shall need all the good wishes for Tuesday, 23 and especially Thursday 25. of April. That is in Central European Time. So if you do not live in Germany, it would be perhaps a night shift. Better think positively of me, before you go to sleep. That's enough... :-)
I passed another exam. And I did well. A 2,0 that is in the upper region of good marks. And it makes me feel happy. I did not think, that I would get that good a mark, but I am very thankful for it. Anotherone bites the dust.
I have also given up my text on corruption, the revised version. So yet another one done. Now I can concentrate on the other exams. That is nice.
Tomorrow there is no school, so I will dedicate the day to Social studies and on Wednesday it is time for the State. :-)
I like it. Next week there are the last three exams. The first to are on the above mentioned topics, the last in Dutch. The language, that is. And that won't be too hard. I did know some dutch before and it is not so very hard to learn. The grammar is not so very cruel. So, that will be a nice end to the exams. I do not wish to rewrite any of them, so I have to have at least a 4,0 in the two S-exams (meaning, that they start with an S).
or, as the saying goes: people who lie on the floor, sometimes get kicked into the bargain.
Now: did I have that kind of experience recently? Why do I bring that up?
I bring it up, because - as so often with me - it is a song. It is a song, that I heard Teri Hatcher sing as Wanda Detroit in "Lois and Clark - The new Adventures of Superman."
But there are serveral other versions of it, like this by Bessie Smith:
It is soulful and really well sung, me thinks. Sad as well, but sometimes it is nice to be sad. And than it is nice to have a "sad song". Just to be comforted. My favourite "sad song" or "depression song" is by the BeeGees: I started a joke.
It really is sad and depressing, but it always calms me down and relieves me of some of my stress symptoms.. BUT it is not good to dwell on depression and sadness. If you can - and unless you are really ill, you usually can - you should really go and find yourself something a little happier. And that is, when my next song for those situations comes into play, a "not so very sad anymore"-song
Now, the topic is sad, but it does have a happy melody. So it moves up my mood quite a bit. I am getting out of it again.
My "I am happy again"-songs differ from time to time, but there is one song, from a german preacher hundreds of years ago, actually he lived through the 30 year war in Europe and died years after it an old man:
Paul Gerhardt. The Song is: "Geh' aus mein Herz und suche Freud". In english it is something like: go out and seek joy. And then there is: Du meine Seele singe. "You my soul sing" and from Dietrich Bonhoeffer (never know how to write the name
correctly): Von guten Mächten treu und warm umgeben "Wrapped around by
good Powers". Or Die güldne Sonne "The golden sun".
It has rhythm. At least in this version. In church it is often sung very slow. But what I like about this song: here was a man, who was a child, when the 30-years-war started and a grown man, when it ended.
He had just lost his wife and at least one of his children. So if anyone had any reason to be really unhappy, it was him. But he wrote this song instead. Or rather the text. The melody is from someone else.
I do not know, if everyone knows the story of Dietrich Bonhoeffer. Like many people he was sent to a KZ for his fight against the Nazis and he died there. But he wrote this song. My grandma had the first lines of this song hanging in her room. And we sang it at her funeral more than 12 years ago. It is a very moving song and it reminds me, of how lucky I am. I can give me the luxury of unhappyness, but I can snap out of it as well. And now we come to my current favorite in resurrecting into happyness:
Tom Jones, just gotta love him.... Oh, forgot: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE VIDEOS HERE! THEY ARE OWNED BY THOSE WHO MADE THEM!!
Well, I wish. It was not quite the case. I did learn and I went walking with the girls. And I ate and played. It was a hard job, but someone had to do it.
Well, I did not do very much really, but I wrote some E-Mails I had to write and I did the walking and we had a long walk, due to the fabulous weather.
It really was great. Much appreciated, especially after the prolongued winter. So I enjoyed that.
When I got home, I started listening to BBC 4 extra. First Paul O'Grady, now Michael Ball. Why? Because it is this time of day in the week. They are always on at the same time.
At any rate. Yesterday I cleaned up some stuff in my living room and threw some away. I did need some breathing space. I am not yet finished, but it is a start at any rate. Tomorrow I'll do some more and hoover as well.
After that I will write some more e-mails and then write some letters. That done, I will throw some more stuff away and thus I get more and more space. I will even do a maschine of wasching, while I'm at it.
So, I was going on about Sunday and now I will see, if I can find the video I was thinking about, when writing that... if not, It might be something completely different... Well, not completely...
Last week I have been to a shop, that sells english food. Like Cheese melts and scones and Cadbury-Chocolate. And some Irisch, Schotisch and American articles as well. I felt in need of an uplift and so I undulged myself a little.
Among the things I bought where scones and the Devonshire clotted cream. Usually one eats that with jam or marmalade, but since I have neither in my flat, I used honey instead and I can say, that that is very tasty as well. But maybe one can have the scones just with the cream?
And now for something completely different:
yesterday I went to a very!!! early morning service and a very long one in my congregation. I suppose, that our reverend was in seventh heaven. He is not usually suffered to hold such long survices. But at easter, we put up with is. "We" meaning the people, who would get along with 45 Minutes just fine. But I do realise, that there are people in the world, who think only two hours a very short affair. I do not have the patience for it. I admit it.
At any rate, this service is very special, because it starts before dawn and the atmosphere is really nice. It was worth getting up about two hours before being awake. Especially with turning the clock ahead an hour. So we did not start at 5.30 am, but at 4.30 am, whatever the clock said.
The reverend was worried, that due to the turning of the clock, there wouldn't be a good attendance, but I have never seen the church this full out of the christmas-service or the summer-fête. We were sitting in over six rows. When it started, several years back, we sat in a one row circle of chairs. But the numbers could not diminish the charm of the service.
Afterwards there is a breakfast with everything one likes. Usually I attend that, but this year we had a breakfast at my parents house. So I went to my flat and my sister and her daughter to theirs. Our dad picked us up and we drove to my parents house.
Due to the SNOW my mom was worried about hiding the easter-eggs outside, but it didn't keep, so it was possible.
Now, I did write here, how much I like snow. And even yesterday I could enjoy the beauty of the big fluffy flakes, but honestly: it is April now and was march yesterday, I think it is time now to stop the snow and start spring!
